HA

Well, that was short lived. I have decided that instead of just taking the easy route and deleting it, I will practice self control and time management. Wish me luck.

Wasting Time

Well, I deleted my facebook. I have kind of thought about it for awhile, but never really took action. I enjoy facebook. I like seeing what people are up to, looking at pictures from people's adventures, and seeing crafty/fun things they do. But, when it comes down to it, it becomes a huge waste of time. So, for now, I am letting it go for a few reasons.
1. I spend WAY too much time on there. It becomes a time filler. Anytime I am waiting on something, sitting in a car, bored, or whatever I jump right on the website. Especially because I have it on my phone. 
2. I begin to talk about all the things I read/see on there. Sometimes good, sometimes not. It becomes petty. 
3. It has replaced my friendships. Instead of making the effort to call/text a friend or family member, I just check their facebook. That usually lets me know what they are up to and what I have missed in their life. This is not ok. I should be contacting people and being a part of their lives and not just seeing what they are up to on a social network. In that case, their worst enemy could know as much as their best friend. And visa-versa, I would rather people contact me than just check my facebook.
4. It is not always good for my soul. For example, I go on today before I went off to baby-sit and the VERY first thing I saw upset me. I was frustrated and almost hurt in a way and I chose to let it bother me all day. I know that is partly in my hands because I choose how I react. But until I can get to the point where things I see on there are not frustrating me, then I will choose to handle it this way by just taking it out of my life. 


So, in the attempt of taking something out of my life, I intend to replace it with something better for me. Like God. I think that is a good idea. Anyway, we will see how it goes. I also plan to blog more because I think it is better for me.


Until next time :)

Louisville

                                            I miss this guy. A lot, a lot.

Hance

Tomorrow, Owasso High School class of 2010 will join for an unexpected reunion. We are being brought back together to celebrate the life of one we have loved so dearly. We have walked the halls with Hance for seven years and tomorrow we will go to the place where we last spent time together as a student body. As hard as it is for me to type, it is going to be even harder for me to do tomorrow. But this is not about me. This is about remembering all the laughter and good times we shared with Hance Henrie.

Hance has affected more people than he will probably ever realize and I just hope that we can all strive to be a little bit more like him: carefree, loving, passionate, and genuine. The life he lived is inspiring to us all as we know he had no fears and no regrets.

As we go into tomorrow with heavy hearts I pray for peace and comfort to settle among us. We all know that Hance is in a far better place and I hope that this has struck a chord somewhere. Tomorrow is not promised, so live for today.

I ask that you please pray for the precious Henrie family and for the people attending tomorrow's funeral. May we be moved by the loss of our dear friend and realize that this life is a gift.

Hance Henrie, you are forever in our hearts and always on our mind. We love you.

Easter Weekend

First off, just a few short hours before I left school to come home, I received an email. These were the result. So beautiful!

 Then, Friday morning I helped my mom out at the donut shop because she was not feeling well. We were selling these cute treats!

Saturday: I went to a horse jumping show. This was a first and probably a last. I had to do it for my horsemanship class and I was lucky to find this going in Tulsa, seeing how I procrastinated.

 Saturday evening: Cosmic Bowling! There were about 7 of us who went bowling and it was tons of fun! I've missed this girl!

                                                                    :)

 Sunday: The greatest day in history. I celebrated with my whole family. I could not ask for better. We also watched a hail storm!

                                                     And colored eggs!

                                                         So fun!!

I'm thankful this weekend that I go to a school that celebrates the death and resurrection of our Lord because it is a time that should be spent with family and those you love. I am also thankful that I won't be driving back to school for another 48 hours! And after that, only 2 1/2 weeks left! 

HE IS RISEN! and I am eternally grateful.  

Plastic

There are many times when I feel I am walking around this place as a complete fake. People say hi and I say hi back. People smile, so I smile. People ask me how I am and I say I am "good"-whatever that means anymore.

Daily.

This is not me. I am not a fake person. I am so tired of feeling like I can't be genuine at all. It would be different if it was just me keeping it in, but it' not. I have yet to feel like someone honestly wants to know the real answers to the questions they ask. I want to feel like someone cares about me. But they don't. Not here. So maybe that explains why I don't want to be here. I think it's a decent reason.

So I have chosen to do something about it. I shall move on to better places and things. To where I know I will be involved with great people and they will care about me and I will care about them. I believe I have a lot more opportunities elsewhere and I would like to take advantage of them. I also have not been this excited about something in awhile, which leads me to believe that this is a good thing. I will soon find out.

(I know later on in life I might look back at this and think it is stupid and depressing, but right now it is how I feel. And it is my blog, so who cares.)

Have a lovely day.

Church

I have always gone to a Nazarene church. It makes sense, being that my dad is an ordained Nazarene pastor. Our churches have always been fairly small and I am okay with that. Everyone knows each other or at least recognizes them. This is what I am used to. But a few weeks ago, I attended the church here on campus, BFC. It is huge! We started off with going to Sunday school and it was alright. The message was pretty good, even though I don't remember it now. Then we went to service. As soon as I walked into the sanctuary I was just in awe. It is literally so big. (I sound so sheltered like I have never seen a big church before, I have.) It was just so weird to me because most Nazarene churches are not that big. But it wasn't necessarily the size that got to me, but the way it affected things. There were quite a few people there, but they were scattered everywhere. It was like one family, a couple rows, then another family. Everyone was so spread out and, to me, that is just now how I see a community. A church should be filled with people who want to help each other grow. How are you supposed to meet people if you aren't even sitting by someone? That just really drove me crazy. Another thing was I was watching the preacher on a screen. Partly because I couldn't see past the big man in front of me, but still. To say the least, I was not comfortable. Everything seemed so routine and planned out.

I think this is one thing that has been really hard for me.  I go home every weekend and a big reason is because I want to be in my home church. This experience really brought this into perspective for me. I like what I have and it may be because I am just not good with things being different, but I love my small, simple church. We don't need a huge band of 10+ members to impress people, or screens to watch the pastor. Just last week, the worship songs got messed up a few times and the leader just kinda laughed and said, "alright, let's try again!" I feel like that would never happen at the other church. I am all about real, genuine people SHARING life together, sitting close together in the pews. To say the least, I am so thankful to be a part of Silver Creek Church of the Nazarene.